“Everything we do, unaccompanied by a change of consciousness, is but a futile readjustment of surfaces.”
Futility is a strong word to use to encompass the majority of what we do in life. But, we function largely through conditioning that has us operating as if on auto pilot. Our egos guide us based on a need to outdo the competition to survive. These days such guidance perpetuates separation by having us constantly judging our selves based on others. Do we see the differences or the similarities?
“...if we listen to our ego, and allow it to consume us totally, we are listening to an outdated, counterproductive, and demeaning system for living in the 21st century.”
When we go through our days feeling that I should be more, better or different, focusing on what I am not, there is a striving to attain based on what we are conditioned to seek. Restlessness, burn out, dissatisfaction, disappointment take the place of peace. This is not what most people experience on a continual basis but as a deeply rooted facet of human nature it can inform our behavior in ways that are not always apparent to us.
We are therefore, caught on the wheel of samsara.
“This compulsion to pursue objects in the hope of deriving happiness, freedom and wholeness from them is called samsara. The wheel of samsara is a never-ending cycle of lack, desire, attachment and suffering.”
However, as is the way of ‘the universe’, we are given windows of opportunity so that we might advance our position on the wheel until voila! No wheel! The beauty of this existence is the ever present guidance to be in the right place at the right time. It just happens and is one of those miracles, if we are noticing, that occur in our lives repeatedly.
The more we notice these moments of synchronicity, that which occurs without my doing anything, the more evidence we gather that shows us that in fact, that is the true nature of everything here—the river always flowing, always giving, always present. The river that is ‘I’.
“You and I can turn and look
at the silent river and wait. We know
the current is there, hidden; and there
are comings and goings from miles away
that hold the stillness exactly before us.
What the river says, that is what I say.”
Just as we collect dust on our shoes when we hike the very dry mountains, so we have collected the emotional content that imprints as trauma upon our innocence. It weighs us down. Is a pack that we carry and have carried so long that we are often oblivious to its weight. But when we wake up to that weight, it is unbearable. Our only desire is to be free of the encumbrance. We yearn for liberation. For enlightenment. Where might we begin? By reflecting upon the identity that we have assigned our selves or that we have allowed others to assign to us.
This of course is an ongoing project. We can be highly aware and still be reflecting upon emotional wounding that is in some way, creating an inauthentic experience. As observers now however, we can actually enjoy the process as we are no longer as personally involved. We know not to take what occurs as personally.
This New Moon in Leo is ruled by the Sun, our conscious self, the ego, the face we present to the world. In the Tarot the Sun XIX, of the major arcana represents the joy of authentic self-expression; being free to share our light and warmth. This occurs as we inch ever closer to divesting our selves of the layers of dust we have gathered. In our natal charts all the various aspects and house positions are a map of how we continually move toward uninhibited self expression.
How does this New Moon at 5 degrees move us closer to our goal? There is a trine (120 degrees) from Jupiter at 8 degrees Aries to this New Moon which is applying-gathering strength. Jupiter in Aries is confidence in the self, enthusiasm, initiative, courage, creative exploration and a willingness to go where none have previously gone. There is a great creative energy within Aries that when expressed through Jupiter is an unrelenting force for growth and expansion.
Here is a window of opportunity for us to catapult our selves out of the mire into the magic! The mire is of course the accumulation of thoughts that keep us stuck in the collective grid of ‘no can do’. Leo, Aries, fire signs that ignite our passion to rid our selves of old identification so that we might embrace once again our innocence, our joy, our peace.
At this degree of Leo the New Moon is represented by the Sabian Symbol that is an old-fashioned conservative lady being confronted by a young hippie girl. Clearly a time to reflect upon our enduring habits, how they shape us and how it is when we no longer adhere to certain beliefs. And for a time, it is necessary for the ego to realize it doesn’t know.
How does magic happen? We don’t know!
Another helpful aspect in this New Moon chart, although also potentially causing us some discomfort is the exact square of Uranus 18 degrees Taurus to Mercury 18 degrees Leo. Uranus here is definitely pushing for Self awareness over self preoccupation. Again, reflecting upon how I may take things personally in a way that contributes to my lack of ease and grace.
We must of course also mention the conjunction of Venus and Black Moon Lilith in Cancer. One thing Venus represents is our values. BML is our point of empowerment or where we embrace authenticity. Cancer is home. Where do we feel most at home? In the realm of freedom to Be our authentic Self; to realize that who I am has always been. Some call it enlightenment but it really is just the absence of all inherited conditioning.
“Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through the facade of pretense. It's the
complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.”
“To attempt to change the world before we change our concept of our selves is to struggle against the nature of things.”